what do i do now? [a post *mostly* dedicated to blondies, but i guess some other stuff too]

hi everyone :) its a particularly lazy saturday afternoon, so i figured i'd busy myself with a blog entry! this post is really, really long. and probably doesnt make sense, because i have a sugar related headache the size of alaska and my fingers are shaking a little bit.
the last 2 or 3 weeks have been quite interesting. mostly average, but a few things have happened, and its been busy enough to get me out of a near comatose state of normality.

after the success of the chocolate cake i baked for jelle's birthday, i somehow became under the impression that i can bake things. like successfully. with my head full of dreams, i set out to work.
i felt kinda bad about purchasing 5 cups of walnuts for thanksgiving which i, post-thanksgiving, still had no intention of eating. so for the last week i've been baking walnut desserts pretty much nonstop. first i used half of them in meringue cookies, because i was like CRAP HOW DO I MAKE SOMETHING DELICIOUS WITH PRETTY MUCH NOTHING EXCEPT WALNUTS? [and eggwhites, and copious amounts of sugar.]
and walnut meringues drifted down from the heavens~ according to my parents, they were good :)
now, i must admit, i am one of those bakers who's baked goods always look sort of questionable. i wish i could bake things that were beautiful, but i'm pretty much just capable of sticking heart shaped sprinkles on top of my lopsided cakes and hoping for the best.
the next thing i baked is a good example of that. i had planned to bake some blondies for the sinterklaas thing afs is having this weekend. i *happened* to have some walnuts on hand, so i figured i'd throw 'em in and everything would be peachy.
blondies are delicious. they are gooey cookie-brownie hybrids, and they are probably one of the worst things you can put in your mouth. besides say, pure lard coated in sugar. paula deen would be proud. anyway.
i didnt have the proper sized pan handy, and i didnt feel like making conversions [I DONT BAKE BY THE RULES I FOLLOW MY HEART] so i just kinda winged it. i stuck them babies in the oven for the reccomended half an hour and didn't look back. i even checked them with a toothpick out of habbit, which came out coated in sugary-chocolate-ness. i did not care. the top was hard, and thats what mattered to me. who complains about blondies being too gooey in the middle anyway? certainly not i.
i decided that if they didn't cut into squares, i wouldnt bring them to the AFS thing because they simply were no beautiful enough. after letting them cool for like an hour, i cut them into... bars? slices? vaguely outlined 12ths of the pan? yeah. they didnt come out so much as "bars", but as "blobs of sugary, nut-y, chocolate-y deliciousness with some crust i guess" WHICH IS TOTALLY FINE WITH ME. i am now in a jittery, slightly crazed euphoria.
so, if you ever need a recipe that even if you fuck it up, it is still guaranteed to be pretty stellar, bake blondies.
okay, done blabbing about my love for baking.
so, the weather is getting colder. not like "ohh it's a little bit nippy noodles out thurr better wear a scarf" cold, like "FUCKING SNOT ICICLES IN MY FACEEE ohgod the tears are freezing in my eyeballs" cold.
like, i'm *fairly* certain an accident related to my fingers being too numb to use my bike breaks is imminant. like, sometimes i consider hybernation as a viable life option.
apparently this type of weather effects nobody but me, because while i'm biking to school in 3 layers of everything, a scarf, gloves, a hat, and earmuffs, there's chav-y guys cruisin' by next to me in naught but a shiny sports jacket. anyway,
cold weather, besides meaning being afraid to go outside, also means it's stamppot season C:
stamppot is a dutch dish that consists of potatoes and a bunch of other stuff mashed into a mash-y mush of stuff. some people love it, some people think it's nasty.

dutch cooking, like my baking, is not known for it's beauty and refinement.

i think it kinda just tastes like potatoes haha. i'm not really sure how someone could hate it, actually. it's pretty difficult to hate, its like hating bread or something.
but i guess we'll be eating a lot of it, since i purchased 3 packages of unox sausage yesterday. to give you an idea of what unox sausage is like, it come's in an sealed package and does not need to be refrigerated. which jacque and i decided is creepy. but, it came with free neon orange glovemittens and i needed them! actually, its really more like i bought a pair of 9 euro mittens that came with 3 free packages of sausage. which i'm okay with.

something everyone should have in their wardrobe.

also, i finally got around to changing my schedule at school! i dropped geography, because i explained to them that it was completely useless, which they accepted. and i switched into an easier math class. also, i got an extra period of CKV because i work ridiculously slowly in that class, because i have to spend extra time translating ridiculous, uncommon words in the questions into english. :D

this picture does nothing to help uitleg the opdracht.

 nevertheless, i think my dutch is actually improving. like, i have conversations with people now c: and even if 90% of my replies are "ja," or "echt?" or "klopt", i still deserve an a for effort.

anyway, today i'm just dicking around drinking tea until like 5, and then i'm taking the train to enschede to spend the night with alex n eline c: we're gonna watch movies and then go out dancing or something. :D
and i'm planning to dump my pan of blondies on them, since i dont want to leave them in the house where i could potentially eat all of them. evil, i know.

aaand my birthday's comin' up. yup. got 2 packages in the mail today c: but im gonna wait till the 5th to open them. joepieee~

hurr durr durr a lot of other stuff happened recently too, but i kinda don't have enough brain power left right now to explain it in a way that isn't stream of consciousness. which, to you, would probably sound like "ashammalammarabbaropparoopadoopaaaa"
and nobody wants that.

finally, have i mentioned to you that this is the nicest thing i own? because it is.

bye!